..but you have a life better than mine. You would never want to be in my shoes I bet. And I had all the reasons (excuses) to be all these in your eyes.

I’m different from anyone of you.

I graduated Cum Laude but now without a career.
I’m taking up nursing because.. it was my desire.
I took up the respsonsibility of being a mother to my siblings.. a father too.
I cried once because I never wanted all these to happen to me.

I’ve seen my father suffer from a motorcycle accident because he was drunk.
I’ve cried for I cannot go to work because I have to take care of him.
I’ve spent days being by his side, caregiving because no one else will.
I’ve cursed nurses who didn’t take care of my ailing father.

I’ve held a bleeding mouth of my sister.. because she was bitten by our dog.
I’ve rushed my sister to the hospital because she needed treatment.
I’ve heard the doctor say that we have to kill our dog to know if it has rabies.
I’ve held my sister in my arms because she was in pain due to injection.

I’ve hugged my crying sister because she was afraid of my father.
I had to put food on table coz dad took all our weekly budget to finance his vice.
I held a knife in my hand trying to protect the house from possible burglars outside.
I’ve tried dialing a friend’s number.. but put down the phone.

I’ve left my utterly effortless job.. because salary was a rare episode.
I’m still waiting for my three months salary since January.
I’ve never settled myself to a career because I have to take care of this family.
I’m still thinking of a future.. only thinking.. just there for now.

..more to come.. I bet.

A pathetic life? Nah.. just destiny. A few tears here. Confusion there. Who am I? Where do I belong?

To those who accidentally/intentionally downloaded shockwave then suddenly realized their Yahoo Messenger is not working, see this as the solution to the problem:

http://www.newbie.org/help/lofiversion/index.php?t508.html

your Yahoo Messenger is crashing i think because of a problem with your flash.ocx file. what i did was i searched my computer for my flash.ocx file, when i found it, it was roughly 768kb.. next to it was a file called swflash.ocx which was 400kb, realising that the flash.ocx file wasn’t functioning i played around a little and renamed flash.ocx to flash.ocx.bak, then copied the swflash.ocx file and renamed it flash.ocx.

this way i’ve got 2 of the same file doing different jobs, it fixed my Yahoo Messenger crash-on-start problem.

the older versions didn’t use shockwave, this is why i think the olderversions are fine.